Love Always Lisa
All About Me!
I’m simply me and I love it!
For me to write the above sentence in itself feels both odd and yet exciting! Odd because I used to think that by saying you love being you, meant you were big-headed or egotistical and I guess sometimes it is.
But for me, I just wanted to do the right thing and I spent so long trying to do everything for everyone else I forgot who I was. Hence why now after rediscovering who I am I really do love that I am just me. And why shouldn’t I? And that’s the exciting part.
Growing up I never felt good enough, I was a teenage mum and told I had ruined my life. I wouldn’t amount to much.
Being told I wasn’t Pretty enough but that’s ok because I was clever!! like that was meant to make me feel better. But as a 12-year-old girl who had not had a boyfriend before, I can assure you I did not. I didn’t want to be the clever kid.
I hated my twenties and thirties … I simply wasn’t me and I hated it! This doesn’t mean that I hated my life just myself! I wasn’t happy in my own skin if that makes sense.
Labels, everywhere Lisa you’re too fat, too talkative to shy… it goes on and on and on.. and boom your 40, and finally the penny drops. None of that matters we are who we are. I had to accept myself for who I am, in all its glory, the good and the bad parts. I hate to tell you this but not one of us is perfect. That said I am now happy at almost 45 as Now I and perfectly me and that is absolutely ok with me and I love it! And that’s the difference.
So why Love Always Lisa?
Well, I used to sign off notes to my husband just like that, and when his mental health deteriorated he stopped replying, and eventually, I stopped too.
I started a blog called ‘Living with Depression … his not mine’ which at first I never published but I started to sign off Love Always Me, not brave enough to put a name to it!
It was sad and dark and real and my most inner thoughts of what was happening. At that time I worried about anyone seeing it. After all, I was told so many times to stop talking about mental health, people don’t want to hear it and sadly I listened. (for a little while anyway, but that’s a whole other story).
Then one day for work on social media I started to sign off Love Always Lisa ❤ because that was my way of letting people know that I was genuinely sending love, as I have a lot of love to give in many forms and it became part of me and what I do.
So why the podcast?
About 3 months ago I started to think about how passionate I am about people. I love getting to know them listening to their stories and experiences and for my Day Job at South West Business Connections it is very important to me to be able to connect and help as many people as much as I can and I love my job very much indeed!
I then reflected on my son’s Journey with his The Tangled Mind Podcast which focuses on mental health and I wondered if I would be good enough to do this too! The little voices in my head were saying: “you can’t do that you don’t know what you are doing, you have no experience”, you know the score it just goes over and over!!!
Out of the Blue I had a card reading By Susan Horwell (of The Healing Table) she offered this to me, it wasn’t in my thoughts to do, and if I am honest I was worried about it! Worried what she may say, would it be something bad. However, after being reassured we went with it, but without going through it all Basically, the signs were there and I am neither a believer nor a nonbeliever. I am a realist and take things at face value to me at that moment and how I interpret things.
The fact is that no one at all, not even my family had any idea of what was in my head. So I took it as a sign for me to do it. The next part makes it all fall into place and feel as if it’s all meant to be. Serendipity!!!
Up pops a post from the Lovely Shane Solomon of The Cornwall Channel advertising his new Podcast Studio. It’s 10 mins from my home.
So you see the way I see it everything we do and everything that happens good and bad all have a consequence. Leading us to the next thing.
I rediscovered who I am, I became more confident and was just me. I then had an outpouring of love and support. I met others and shared stories and they helped me evolve. I had an idea, I was inspired and then the signs guided me to be brave and do it. And staring me in the face was an opportunity!
‘If somebody offers you an amazing opportunity but you are not sure you can do it, say yes – then learn how to do it later!’ – Sir Richard Branson
So Love Always Lisa Officially Started On Tuesday 2nd March 2021. And I really hope that you enjoy listening to Guests from all over the world share their stories and feel inspired and take everything with the Love and Kindness as it is intended.
Thank You All for playing a part in this so far, It is greatly appreciated.